I want to overdose?

I tried to kill myself at 16. I failed (obviously) but I have done so much since then. I have two children and a new grandchild (girl) none of them would be alive if I succeeded. I have been to 24 foreign countries and seen so many beautiful places and met so many great people. When you start enjoying life regardless of all its up and downs you do decide when to die. The very last minute possible.... Yes there are sorrowful times, sad times and depressing times but I can tell you first hand everything changes and before you know it life is lived and you wish you had it back. You could not tell me that (or anything for that matter) 36 years ago and I am sure you are having trouble believing me now. But I got my philosophy of life from a tomb stone. It said "Where you are now I once was. Where I am now you will someday be." and I say that to you now. I was where you are and felt hopeless but now I know it wasn't and you shall someday be where I am now. So believe the same for yourself because you are worth more to the future of this world than you can imagine. What if you find the cure for AIDS or cancer when you grow up? What if you save someone’s life or inspire someone to be president of the United States? What if someday you are looking into the face of your grandchildren and they smile at you? I had no clue at 16 but I knew I was miserable. That will eventually p and life will be whatever you can make of it. The people of the future are waiting for you to help them, love them and care about them. Go fulfill your destiny and maybe someday you will be writing an email to someone saying just what I have.... I care about you and the people in your future.